Rainbow

Rainbow wanted to share herself through her artwork as she told you her story.

These conditions make daily life difficult, especially in a home where I do not feel safe or supported because my mom still doesn't accept that I do have actual disabilities, often accuses me of faking and being immature. I often struggle with sensory issues and emotional regulation, and social situations are hard for me. I also have limitations regarding traveling long distances, particularly by driving.

Despite these obstacles, I try my best every day. I manage my daily routines as well as I can, though I benefit greatly from gentle reminders, for instance, to take my medication or take care of hygiene. More than anything, I need a peaceful, supportive environment somewhere I am not being screamed at or put down. Despite these obstacles, I try my best every day.

I want to learn how to navigate shared spaces better, build healthier habits, and slowly become more self-reliant. I know I have a lot to learn, especially when it comes to handling conflict or advocating for myself, but I’m willing to try.

My routine is fairly simple. I go to bed early, wake up early, and need some quiet time to myself. I try to contribute around the house by doing what I’m asked to do. I don’t expect perfection in others, just kindness and patience. I want to be treated like a person, not judged for my diagnoses or past.

My name is Rainbow, and I am 31 years old. For much of my life, I have lived under challenging circumstances. I currently live with my parents in an environment that is emotionally and physically abusive. My mother is controlling and often becomes violent over minor frustrations. I am blamed for problems that have nothing to do with me, and I am regularly told that I am worthless. This has taken a severe toll on my mental and emotional well-being, where I live in fear of her retribution.
Living in this situation has been especially challenging given my disabilities. I am diagnosed with autism, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, anxiety, PTSD, conversion disorder, arthritis, fibromyalgia, diabetes, epilepsy, and asthma.

These conditions make daily life difficult, especially in a home where I do not feel safe or supported because my mom still doesn't accept that I do have actual disabilities, often accuses me of faking and being immature.

I manage my daily routines as well as I can, though I benefit greatly from gentle reminders, for instance, to take my medication or take care of hygiene. More than anything, I need a peaceful, supportive environment somewhere I am not being screamed at or put down.

My social life is mainly online. I do not have friends I can meet in person, but I have a long-distance boyfriend who has been an important part of my life for the past year. he offers emotional support and reminds me I am not alone, even on the hardest days.

I have never lived with a group or host family before, but I’m interested in the possibility because I want to be in a caring environment that supports my independence and personal growth.

What I hope to gain most from this experience is a fresh start. A chance to grow in a safe place, to work on myself, and to be seen for who I truly am beyond my struggles. I don’t come with cultural traditions or flashy goals, I come with hope. Hope for healing, for peace, and for the simple but powerful feeling of being treated with dignity and care.

Thank you for considering me.

Sincerely,

Rainbow